street waifs stringing white flowers into long, fragrant necklaces, plucked them from the sky shook them from the tall green bushes until they fell like rain upon the grass —-
jasmine necklaces sold for devout señoras to wear at Flores de Mayo processions five centavos for all that work, three if señoras haggled long enough —-
were you one of the little ones hands baked by the sun, wide-eyed, barefoot, hungry?
how time comes and leaves so swiftly as in half a breath, as in a hurried dream, and for whatever reason there may have been I came to be —-
older folks would tell me you walked miles to school, no centavos for a ride, and your classmates laughed and sneered as they rode the bus and passed you by, you walked on carrying your dreams in your heart.
how time comes and leaves so swiftly as in half a breath, as in a hurried dream, and you are gone —-
tonight as I recall the tales of folks from long ago I drench my pillow with the fragrant tears of white jasmine flowers through the midnight hours, into the break of dawn.
The air was a white, pearlescent haze as I walked upon the street cobblestones along some quaint shops in a New England village. A small leather bag hanged from my right wrist and in it were my credit cards, driver’s license, passport, and some dollar bills. I felt uncomfortable with the small bag as it was not the shoulder bag I usually carry around.
After walking a while, I sought refuge in a furniture store where I could rest my aching feet. It was then when I noticed that my little leather bag was no longer around my wrist. Suddenly I felt a whirlwind of panic — I have lost the objects of my identity! In the midst of my bewilderment, a kind, middle-aged lady approached me and I told her my plight. With a sweet, soothing voice she said, “My dear, everything can be replaced”.
I blinked and rubbed my eyes. It was all a dream.
The leather wrist bag flashed in my mind and immediately I was smacked with a shock of recognition: it was the exact same bag my father had given me to hold my passport, plane ticket and three single dollar bills when I left home decades ago to pursue graduate studies in a foreign land.
All I owned when I embarked on the plane were three single dollar bills, a few clothes in a small suitcase, and my name.
In a faraway land, God has faithfully provided for me through the promise of each new day, especially through difficult circumstances, across the landscapes of the seasons and the years.
In this life I can easily misplace so many worldly “things” which can be replaced. What I cannot lose is the essence of who I am as a child of God. Though the seedling has grown into a strong, tall tree which blossoms every spring, I am that same young lady who left everything behind, flew towards the stars, crossed oceans and mountains, to pursue a dream.
Teach me to number my days the way You number the hairs on my head, the way You are mindful of petals and sparrows as they fall with the leaves in the mist of autumn rain —
was it only this morning when my hair was in pigtails, as I dressed my dolls in pink dresses, dreamt of a fairytale prince upon a white stallion awaiting to take me to a castle hidden in emerald forests —
towards noon when I felt butterflies fluttering in clandestine chambers of my youthful heart, I met my first love and time was suspended, drowned in ivory clouds and endless blue oceans —
i can still feel the afternoon warmth when the children came and their laughter mingled with the melody of songbirds, the hum of restless cicadas —
at sunset my love and I rowed the silent rivers, built a bonfire upon the sand, held each other’s hand for warmth —
and now at twilight wrapped in the lavender glow, i treasure the dwindling vestiges of tender moments, the faint beloved song that will remain when evening falls.
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